Is there A Scientific Benefit to PTSD?

  I have spent my entire adult life trying to understand my childhood. Something, I don’t know what, is driving me to comprehend my parents mental illness. I wonder though, what will I gain by knowing? Will enlightment change anything? Give me more compassion? Will it bring me freedom? So many people throughout the course of my life have told me to let go. To…

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Breaking the silence

selah – you raise me up   Previous blog posts have only grazed the surface of all that is me. Up until this point I feel I have posted in third person; gently knocking on truths door. I have confronted the demons that poured my foundation, all except one; myself.   This is one moment, a single snap decision, an impulse post that if I…

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Touch 

   What is it to be touched without recoiling into ones self like a broken spring? To never hide behind locked doors that slam shut as people approach?  To stiffen as hard as stone when a hug or small embrace is offered? What fear lurks behind such vulnerability?  As I grieve touch I have learned the safety of my own spirit. A warm embrace I…

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Footprints in the sand 

   I believe dreams are a direct line of communication between the conscious and subconscious or the conscious mind and God. I also believe a persons subconscious is like a guardian whose sole mission is to protect ones psyche.    People that have internal conflict or don’t understand why they do what they do have a habit of blaming the subconscious.  For example, “I drink…

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Silence 

   We come here as often as we can manage to steal away;  Whenever there is an overwhelming urge to unplug or disconnect from the everyday monotony. Sometimes I need to get lost in its endlessness and power.    There is comfort to be found sitting next to something bigger than yourself, a weight that is somehow lifted. The freedom to let go of all…

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Silent screams and putting a broken heart to bed 

  There’s a small lake in my community that nobody visits. When times get to be to much I drive my car down there and scream. I scream out my pain, fear, loneliness, and anger. Listening to myself as I scream I’m reminded of an animal howling in pain as it dies. It is a guttural, primal, almost an inhuman sound. I can feel every…

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DSM-5: Rethinking Reactive Attachment Disorder

There’s an itch within me I can’t scratch; a wild animal clawing to get out. I climb to the highest vantage point in order for all to hear because I have something to say.     Most keep on walking like they have seen it all before; a deranged loon yelling at the top of a building. The disconnect does not bother me; one person in…

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Expanding upon one dimension of “Hell”

I am a novice so I won’t pretend to be a billy graham, not that I would want to be anyway. I always find it interesting that atheists can quote scripture better than most christians; as christians, we should take a lesson. With that said, it’s hard to understand what the phrase “the living word” truly means if you have never felt the energy that…

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The secrets a closed mind protects 

People are layered like coats of paint on a wall. With each broken heart, deserted dream, or loss of hope a new coat is added. Imagine what each layer hides; fear painted over with sadness, sadness painted over with anxiety, etc. now, imagine a person seeking true healing because they are tired of the paint masking reality. You scrape off a layer of anxiety to…

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