Fire and Ice: The Work Of Opposing Forces To Create A River Of Healing

  I am at the point of exhaustion where my mind has turned to mush; So much so that sentence made think of mashed potatoes. But, my mind will not shut down which is usually the case when I’m on the cusp of some major breakthrough. I had this dream the other night and call me crazy, but I put a lot of stock into…

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The Codependent, The narcissist, and The Egg

I was pregnant with another little girl. I was glowing with expectation because I already knew the joy of having a daughter. Boys are special, but little girls are filled with secrets and such wonders that I could hardly contain my excitement at learning this child’s heart. I had a beehive of children buzzing about the house, swarming at my feet and to add one…

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Unmasking Borderline Personality Disorder

Growing up with a borderline mother I had to treat myself as if I were a borderline by default, or by proxy (however you want to look at it) in adulthood. There is one very clear, definitive line, that separates me from my mother though; and that is my self-awareness. At the age of nineteen, I began my process of healing and treated myself as…

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Coffee with President Obama

  Who am I to teach, preach, or blog like I have it all figured out when in fact the only thing I have figured out is that I have nothing figured out at all! I am constantly reminded that if I want my blog traffic to grow I have to conform. But, conformity to me is giving advice I don’t have or making  lists…

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Living Without Purpose: The Limiting of Our Expectations

I am an extreme thinker and by that I mean when I have an idea I follow it like a trail of breadcrumbs to its end. In a recent post, I talked about expectations (click the word expectations to read the previous post) and the limitations they put on not only your relationship with other people but the person themselves. By that I mean when we…

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Catchy Title Goes Here: Life is a Freak Show

Sometimes we have to follow the flow of life and make some changes. Change doesn't always mean conformity, but moving toward a direction that suits us best.

  Years ago I had a professor in college refer to himself as a passive anarchist. The contradiction resonated with me because I see myself as one big contradiction! Being a 90’s kid when I think of anarchists I think of the circle-A symbol, mohawks, chaos, and spray paint. I don’t know why I think of spray paint other than I am just that old!…

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The Magic of Unicorn Farts and Fairy Dust

My impending divorce has shaken my world and not in the negative way I once thought. In the beginning and with our past separation I thought my life was over as my world had been torn apart; which I now realize was my codependent frame of mind. Speaking of codependency, there is a 12 step program modeled after AA and adapted for the specific needs…

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Let Hope Reign Over This Place

Sometimes your mind can be cruel. Learning to love myself was one of the best decisions I've ever made. I no longer allow the voice in my head to control my emotions.

        “how could you let the house get so bad?”   “Your so lazy. You used to keep the house so clean. What happened to that person?”   “you don’t have a real job, this house should be spotless”   This is my train of thought while standing in the middle of the tornado that is my living room. I am in…

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Home is not a place but rather a feeling

      It is hard to believe that in my present situation I am able to gain any insight or that I am overwhelmed with positivity and promise. I have surprised myself with how fast I put on my big girl panties and took charge of my situation.       As far back as I can remember I have been waiting on someone…

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