Choosing Happiness: Utilizing Neuroplasicity In The Battle Aganist Depression

  I am living in limbo hell, but I am learning a valuable lesson as a result! I am an impulsive person and when I realized this divorce was necessary I wanted to take our tax money and bolt. Having two teenagers in high school made that decision impossible so here we are, in limbo. This house is not a home anymore, it is our…

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The Children of Borderline Personality Disorder

Interviewer: “If you could start from scratch as an emotional infant what is one thing you would tell your inner child? How would you raise your child?”   Interviewee: “1) you are safe 2) I love you/ it’s not your fault. Raise my inner child with compassion understanding and the freedom to be myself.. good questions”   Interviewee number 2: “I want to tell my…

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This Is My Battle Cry

These feelings are so raw I would rather have my heart on a butcher’s block. Does the unfairness of life even have its own body part? This anger is dwelling somewhere inside of me but I can’t find it nor can I find its associated body part. It is a mustard seed of resentment hiding under the bridge of my soul like a troll requiring…

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Fire and Ice: The Work Of Opposing Forces To Create A River Of Healing

  I am at the point of exhaustion where my mind has turned to mush; So much so that sentence made think of mashed potatoes. But, my mind will not shut down which is usually the case when I’m on the cusp of some major breakthrough. I had this dream the other night and call me crazy, but I put a lot of stock into…

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The Codependent, The narcissist, and The Egg

I was pregnant with another little girl. I was glowing with expectation because I already knew the joy of having a daughter. Boys are special, but little girls are filled with secrets and such wonders that I could hardly contain my excitement at learning this child’s heart. I had a beehive of children buzzing about the house, swarming at my feet and to add one…

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Unmasking Borderline Personality Disorder

Growing up with a borderline mother I had to treat myself as if I were a borderline by default, or by proxy (however you want to look at it) in adulthood. There is one very clear, definitive line, that separates me from my mother though; and that is my self-awareness. At the age of nineteen, I began my process of healing and treated myself as…

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Do Not Be a Self-care Brat

  I am going to try this one more time to see if I can get any juices to flow other than from my abscessed tooth (yeah, sorry for that I could not help but make a joke). I have been in a funk lately and have not been able to find my words. This happens every time I try to change my writing style;…

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Coffee with President Obama

  Who am I to teach, preach, or blog like I have it all figured out when in fact the only thing I have figured out is that I have nothing figured out at all! I am constantly reminded that if I want my blog traffic to grow I have to conform. But, conformity to me is giving advice I don’t have or making  lists…

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Living Without Purpose: The Limiting of Our Expectations

I am an extreme thinker and by that I mean when I have an idea I follow it like a trail of breadcrumbs to its end. In a recent post, I talked about expectations (click the word expectations to read the previous post) and the limitations they put on not only your relationship with other people but the person themselves. By that I mean when we…

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Catchy Title Goes Here: Life is a Freak Show

Sometimes we have to follow the flow of life and make some changes. Change doesn't always mean conformity, but moving toward a direction that suits us best.

  Years ago I had a professor in college refer to himself as a passive anarchist. The contradiction resonated with me because I see myself as one big contradiction! Being a 90’s kid when I think of anarchists I think of the circle-A symbol, mohawks, chaos, and spray paint. I don’t know why I think of spray paint other than I am just that old!…

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